She clenches her fists and closes her eyes. Grimaces as she spits out words in a music studio in Guatemala City. The producer is nodding appreciatively on the other side of the glass. The lyrics are felt and experienced. She does not sing beautifully, but honest. She believes every word of what she raps.
Jen Soto is a young woman living in the capital. She has studied film and is a musician. She raps about being young woman in Guatemala. Her music is a form of camouflaged political activism. In the song Dreams about Creation, she describes her own experience with abortion – the discovery that she was with child, the abortion she provoked by using the pill Cytotec and the depression that followed.
Unlike Antonia Jen represents another group in Guatemala, the white, urban and wealthy. They are a minority in the country, but is a powerful group. Jen´s friends are artists, political activists, musicians and documentary filmmakers. She is highly educated and knows how to access information about abortion. Nonetheless, her experience with Cytotec, like Antonia, was dominated by uncertainty. She also performed the abortion alone.
Jen made her choice and terminated the pregnancy. She chose not to be a single parent. Not because she could not afford to support herself and the child, or because of her environment would be seeing it as a sin to have a child outside a marriage. Not because she was at risk of dropping out, like Antonia. Jen chose abortion because she wanted to decide what would happen to her own body.