When she found out she was pregnant, it was clear to Antonia she had two choices. She could either marry the father of the baby, or she could have an abortion. The boy she was pregnant with was not the one she imagined she would spend the rest of her life with. The choice fell on the last option.
Antonia immediately started searching for information on the internet. She read about pregnancy and abortion, talked to doctors and inquired with friends from school. She heard about Cytotec and took the pill vaginally at home in her city-apartment. But the bleeding never started.
After ten days she bought a second pill. She did not bleed that day either. But then, after a few days, when she was at home alone, she suddenly got severe pain in the stomach and the blood came. She miscarried, but the bleeding would not stop. She lost a lot of blood and felt as if she was going to die. Antonia alerted the woman who lived next door, and with her help she went to the hospital.
That day Antonia almost suffered the same fate as many others. Abortions under risky conditions is the number one cause of death among young women in Guatemala. Antonia does not remember much of what happened at the hospital, but when she awoke, she was faced with questions about how she could have done such a cruel thing, and a bill for the two liters of blood that had been transferred to her body.